Wednesday, May 24, 2006
:: Silence ::
I'm strangely quiet today. Pensive and brooding, with many thoughts running through my head. Thoughts that could have been disturbing and have me highly agitated if I was the girl that I was three months ago. Now I just feel mildly melancholic and strangely calm. Tears that should have been shed would not come. Just simply because there was no reason to. Guess rationality overtook my past emotional fragility and vulnerability. Yet I feel uneasy...this transition is something new but not necessarily bad for me. In fact, I think it is pretty good. But will I become this apathetic, unfeeling person after all this? I feel quite incapable of anger and sadness. It's like a mild tingling sensation compared to say, hemiparesis or complete paralysis? Lol...medical terms again. I would give anything right now to be able to cry just once and let it all out. Any suggestions?
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5:51 AM
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