:: I'm at peace with myself ::
After all the emotional turmoil and illnesses I had to grapple with, after all the soul searching and depressive episodes, the questions are finally answered. And I'm thankful. I'm strong, and I have made through it, and no one can convince me otherwise. No one can bring me down anymore (unless I'm wrong then I gotta apologise, of course lol...). I've finally come to terms with the fact that no matter how hard you strive, there are still a few people (maybe even those you care about) who are going to constantly doubt you and feel your efforts are inadequate, insufficient or even think you are not putting any effort into improving your situation. The key I guess is to pull yourself away from such negativities and tell yourself you ARE doing well. After all, who knows best your own progress but yourself?
I'm especially strangely thankful that I have actually gone through all I have. No point regretting now. God works in mysterious ways and there is always a reason behind everything. Am feeling quite apathetic at the moment, being detached from any form of emotion...and all around me, I see people going through tough times and I think, 'Wow, I was there once and what a mess I was and look how far I've come. How can I ever doubt myself?' Without God, none of this is possible. Without God's grace, I never would have gotten Grace's wisdom. Hehe...Grace Chew, thanx!!! And Siaw's many many meaningful old proverbs (I have no idea where he gets them from).
So now, with this calmness of mind and inner peace, I'm ready to embark on a new chapter in my life, with a new love......God.
7:59 PM
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